Well today is December 1, 2005, I am at work and me and my husband just left our lunch break. We just completed a conversation about self esteem issues. Well, how we began the conversation, my jealousy issues. I feel like I have the best husband in the world and everytime I see another woman look his way, I think to myself, gosh she is so much prettier than me. My husband doesn't understand this.
Sometimes I don't either. I have people i don't even know tell walk up to me and tell me I am beautiful, but for some reason, it just goes in one ear and not the other. "Oh you should be a model, you are so pretty,blah blah blah blah) What are they talking about? I don't know what is wrong with me. I don't understand why I cannot except what they are saying to me. My husband tells me I am beautiful and I believe him, but I just think to myself, that is because I am his wife.
Sometimes when I get ready in the morning, I look in the mirror and say wow, I am pretty, but it's like a temporary fix, because give me 1-2 hours, I feel ugly again.
What is wrong with me, this is interfering with my future and my goals. I just graduated college, and I want to start my career, but self esteem is so bad, I am afraid to send my resume once I read a job description, because I am afraid I can't do it.
